Say Am 'GOD' In Bed
Wow... I didn't know I was that fucking good on bed?!
*ARGH, yeah... who's you mama, double snap snap!* And now you have all reason to call me '
GOD' in bed =)
Time to ge de-virginized! Any bookings? =P
Birthdate Rationale
Actually, I did this for quite sometime already, but always forget to post it up.
Well, guess, you'll know me even better by now. =)
Your Birthdate: July 28 |
Your birth on the 28th day of the month (1 energy) adds a tone of independence and extra energy to your Life Path.
The number 1 energy suggest more executive ability and leadership qualities than you path may have indicated.
A birthday on the 28th of any month gives greater will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach.
Unlike much of the other 1 energy, this birthday is one that endow with the ability to start a job and continue on until it is finished.
You may prefer to use the broad brush, but you can handle details as well.
You are sensitive, but your feeling stay somewhat repressed.
You have a compelling manner that can be dominating in many situations. |
So FUCKED!!
Just realized how FUCKED UP I would be for tomorrow's WIP meeting. I am sure bosses is going to question me left right center upside-down...
1. I have update my XXXXX XXXX WIP sheet yet
2. I have to clean up XXXX WIP sheet
3. Have fucking a lot to follow up tomorrow
4. etc etc etc etc etc etc etc.....
HOLLY FUCK!
Interview Slut...
Yes, I am officially called
'The Interview Slut'. Within last year and this, I have at least went for more than 15 interviews from one Agency to another. Thanks to Ming / Cindy / Alvin / Evelyn / Phoebe for calling me that! =P
But recently, last Tuesday was the most fruitful one I must say! This lady from Bozell really gave me a clear vision of where I will be heading to and what see sees in me.
She commented that I was a
rare breed, on the fact that I can converse, write, and understand Mandarin and the mindset. Which is quite true! 12 years of Chinese education not wasted at least. I think she is kind of interested in me and I am very glad I spoke to her on my career advancement. I think we have chemistry.
So no back to the question, if she hire me, should I leave where I am comfortable now? Is being over comfortable bad for me? Even if I move, it will not be a career advancement for me, cause all I am asking for is going to be almost the same besides the $$$ lar. Sometime, I think I had enough from the current management, but it is the people here that is so lovely that I totally forgotten that I hate the management. 2 and a half year... is it too long? Questions kept popping out but no solution can counteract.
Ming said I should change an environment.
I said I love the people here too much!
Ming said I should explore and then you can really learn.
But I am not the adventurous type.
Ming said I should look for a bigger Agency to jump and go for more interview.
Then I said maybe not. I do not want to have too many options and I will probably end up no where.
Ming said I will regret if I don't jump to a bigger Agency
I replied... I say ...
I really dunno!Sometime I felt like I am a walking man wearing a condom, not adventurous and too conservative.
I think it's true!
And FUCK Saturday and Sunday Too...
Coz I will be back in the office on Saturday and Sunday and work my ass off!
FUCK Friday...
Whoever said Friday is the most easy-going day off all... please go bang your head to the wall and suck your own dick!
BECAUSE I AM STILL FUCKING STUCK IN THE OFFICE AT 12:40AM! It's way passed mid-night and why am I still working?
There goes my party night. And my groovie moments. And my 'hey you're gorgeous, can you sleep with me' opportunity. On the night of 27-May-2005. And don't ever message me at this moment and tell me that you are partying! I will go straight to the location and KILL you!
*sob sob* Coz I envy you!
Can someone get me out of the office please?
Get To Know Me Better...From Now Onwards.
For those whom have not been knowing my kind of character. This is for your references.
Making Mummy Angry...
A short 5 min conversation with my mom before I walk out from the house:
Mum - 'Boy... you got gf already ar?'
Me - 'No lar... where got time?'
Mum - 'You should start looking for one already. Don't you have any future planning one meh?'
Me - 'What future planning? I am no concerntrating on my career. Don't have any plans to get a gf or get married soon.'
Mum - 'Yeah, but you're old enough to find a gf already lar. And you should get married soon.'
Me - 'What? For god sake, I am only 23 and you're asking me to get married soon? You crazy ar? I don't want to get tied up with marriage yet. I want to enjoy myself for the moment.'
Mum - 'Then don't you have any close gf now?'
Me - 'Nop, and no intention at the moment wor.'
Mum - 'Office ler? Don't have meh?'
Me - 'Mum, enough, I am telling you now for once and that's all. I am not going to get married before the age of 35.'
I walked to the bathroom. Then walked out again. Me - 'Ok, maybe earlier... before 30.'
Mum - 'But then, when you plan to have kids?'
Me - 'Mum... I hate kids!'
Mum - 'You crazy ar?'
Me - 'No, I am not and I don't like kids. They irritated me more than I like them!'
Mum - 'Then why are you always playing with your nephew and showing us like how much you like kids?'
Me - 'I only like other people's kid. Not my own!'
Me - 'And they are really irritating! I enjoy playing with them when I know I don't have to take care of them.'
Mum - 'You selfish bastard!'
Me - 'Still... I am not going to have any kids if I get married.'
Walked into the bathroom and shower. After a good ten minutes...Mum - 'Crazy boy!'
I just walked away warping in my towel. It's a matter of fact that
I DUN LIKE KIDS WHEN THEY ARE MINE! I think I would most likely ended up torture + abuse + killing them if I ever have one.
Sigh... life sucks when you're being pressured.
12:08am
Worked the hold day non-stop.
Phone kept ringing every 5 minute.
Mouth kept talking about jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs and jobs.
Mind kept thinking about work work work work work and work.
Eyes kept blink blink. Damn dry.
Stress kept coming up up up up up up up and up!
And why other people's problem is always my problem?
I need another holiday break! Anyone joining me?
New Words Of The Day
These are the new words I learnt from my lovely Client during today's meeting. Wanted to laungh so badly, but I can't!
Gooli Bags means Goodie Bags
James means Gym
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Setting A Goal & Work Towards It...
1st day at work from my BALI trip already making me feel DAMN stress!!!
STRESS FACTOR #1John, my boss called me and Margaret into his room today for a short budget meeting. Apparently, we are short fall for RM250K for end of June closing. With my XXXX Client, it is very hard to korek money from them! Seriously tough. And it doesn't help that Margaret being so Margaret, dictacting what I need to do and what she is in the midst of working on! Oh 'PUHHHH-LISSSSS' Margaret, give me a break! You're working on nothing and you should stop bull-shitting before I try to starve the bull up ur ass! Opppps... sorry, ya.. as I mentioned, if I did not close the remainder RM250K before end of June, it will be brought forward and I will be so dead for Q3 billing then.
STRESS FACTOR #2 (OH-THIS-IS-REALLY-STRESS)Jordan, my another boss had another budget meeting with me at 11pm on XXXXXXXXX. Again GI short fall! This time the number is quite big! And I got no idea how I can go about it to get the GI. All these while, my Client is very nice to listen to me on my marketing proposal and I think that she is glad and happy that at least someone cares about her account now, unlike LK and AT time. So now also have to work out some documentation on K1 & K2 shit to see how else I can propose to my Client again... This is so FUCKED UP! And the deadline doesn't help too... it's Friday, by 11am.
STRESS FACTOR #3 (OH-THIS-IS-FARKING STRESS) John, called me in to his room again. He asked me a question that caught me out of guard. (This is a compressed version. The actual conversation was about 1 and a half hour long!)
John - 'What do you think off Anne's promotion? Be very frank to me!'
Me - 'Well, there must be a reason u promoted someone. For me, I don't know the reason so I can't really make a judgement. If you really want to know how feel? I think its a bit too early for her to be promoted to AAD, and frankly if the Agency is evaluating a promotion based on the amount of GI a person bring in, I think that is so wrong.'
John - 'I promoted her not because that she brought in a lot of GI, but it was based on the fact that she has proven herself by bring in different business segments from the Client and she demonstarte her credibility and leadership to the Client in leading the account.'
Me - 'OK. I see where you're coming from...'
John - 'I want you to be more proactive in leading XXXX account. I want you to treat this as your baby and grow the business horizontally. Can you proove to me by end of August? I am very sensetive to how my staff feels. And yes, I want to promote you, like how I promoted Anne, and you need to give me a reason to promote you.'
Me - 'OK.'
John - 'Nicky, as of now you are doing very well. You know the processes inside out, but I need you to pull yourself out from all the processes and focusing on growing the business. Let Shane do all that process driven work. Give her guidance only when necessary. I need you to look out for business opportunity for XXXX and find a way to sell it to them.'
Me - 'OK, but John. Something is bothering me right now!'
John - 'What is that about?'
Me - 'To make it clear, who am I reporting to?'
John - 'Me.'
I found such a good opportunity to bitch about Margaret to John..... yippie!
Me - 'OK, but I did not see that happening as of the moment. Since Margaret was roped into the account, I lost the feel of the ownership to this account. Because most of the time she is dictacting what I should do, what I should present to you and what I should not. I have all sorts of thoughts and idea to share, but she was a blockage for me to bounce off any idea to you. She fucking wanted to see everything before I show it to you cause she claims that she has a better gage of your preference. But what the fuck, if I am being dictacted for what I am do and what I can't, I might as well don't have the ownership of this account and just do whatever I am asked to do only.'
John - 'Nicky, I hear you. I roped Margaret in because I needed someone senior to anchor the account. But to me although she's an AD but I still think she's quite junior. And, it's not all the time that she has a better gage on my preferences, but she might have certain experience in the past that she encounter might seen valuable to add as a point. So, nothing is stopping you from sharing your thoughts with me and I don't think she is right all the time too. You need to outshine yourself in front of the Client and make the sees something's valuable in you.'
Me - 'OK John... I get what you mean'
John - 'I don't expect something to turn-around within 24 hours, but I want you to work toward August deadline. I want to promote you to Associate Account Director too.'
Me - 'Thanks John. I really appreciate it. I will work towards it.'
And YES, I am working towards that direction and it is so stress now that I have to really pull myself out from what I am doing now and look at things from a bird's eye view and a different perspective. And that means, more late nights of writing proposals in PPT format.... SHIT!!!
STERSS FACTOR #4Chit talking to maggie... my favorite Client of all. But dunno what they spoke about. I am very scared that he brainwashed her!!
STRESS FACTOR #5 Ming directed me to somewhere 'ULU' and she and jordan screamed at me for not doing a good car reversing job. And somemore their shouting and screaming stimulates migrane attack! How bad can that be!!
Why do I have to face all this shit?
Cheee-bye.
Embark Of A New Journey...
Never mind the past, but l shall look forward for the future!
Should not be bothered by the old stories, with a more rejuvenated body, mind, and soul, let's get focus and expedite from here on!
Margaret, you can eat my shit! I don't give a shit about you! Please mind your own business and stop being a pain in the ass.
How Come ; How Long
Throughout my BALI trip, I had my iPod accompany me wherever I go. It's a BLISS and saving grace for me... because:
Carol - Forever that 'KECOH' talk non-stop througout the journey, just like a chicken backside!
Ketty - Cool person. Damn 'CHO LO', but damn funny too. I think I click well with her.
Wendy - Another character like Carol. Sometime I think she's a bit too much, but somehow I think she can be a nice friend too. Alamak.. how lar? Make me 'CONPUSED' now.
J Han - Somehow we have nothing in common to talk about. Sometime he can be really funny... and sometime NOT.
And I don't know why I have been playing the song - 'How Come, How Long' by Babyface feat. Stevie Wonder for more than 20 times. I simply can't resist not to replay it over and over again...
Over Conscious
Sometime, I think my over conscious-ness is killing me!
And being too particular about everything does not do me anything good. It makes me feel guilty from getting what I wanted.
How? You tell me how I should just take it sweet and easy la?
Some Experience In Life
I was misunderstood for a moment. See below, the conversational bit on MSN with my ex-college mate.
CH says: (12:12:25 AM)
oh shucks...coz i have a friend looking for a job in agency
CH says: (12:12:54 AM)
creative side...willing to learn and be trained.
Funkster™ says: (12:13:03 AM)
if it's art director / copywriter ... i think our CD is interested to meet up with them
Funkster™ says: (12:13:10 AM)
oic...
Funkster™ says: (12:14:12 AM)
can give me the name, I can pass to my traffic.
CH says: (12:14:41 AM)
my friend's name is XXX XXXX.
CH says: (12:14:54 AM)
should i tell my friend to call you or what? or just walk in?
Funkster™ says: (12:15:26 AM)
ok ... she's a copywriter or art director?
CH says: (12:15:55 AM)
she's neither. she's a fresh grad. but looking for a chance to enter agency and learn the ropes on the creative/art dept.
CH says: (12:16:18 AM)
a creative and hardworking girl
Funkster™ says: (12:17:04 AM)
argh... but it's hard to tell my traffic if she can't decide she wants to do copywriting or art directing. Anyway can she operate a mac comp?
CH says: (12:18:09 AM)
but i didnt say copywriting mah...she's interested in being in art and when i say creative, i dont mean writing. i meant creative = art stuff. concepts etc
Funkster™ says: (12:24:58 AM)
argh...
Funkster™ says: (12:24:59 AM)
okok
Funkster™ says: (12:25:36 AM)
u pass me the contact, i will get my traffic to contact her .
CH says: (12:31:47 AM)
why you argh? troubling u is it?
CH says: (12:32:18 AM)
i was just asking out of curiosity. if u guys are hiring, i was just going to tell her to try applying thats all
Funkster™ says: (12:33:45 AM)
no lar not troubling me at all lar... my argh... is the ahhh....
CH says: (12:34:25 AM)
ohhhhh...u know lah on the net, anythin can be misread or misunderstood. thought u not happy
Funkster™ says: (12:35:01 AM)
hello... i happy go lucky person since when i'll get pissy with such a small thing to help =P
All you have to tell me is ... my friend is interested in Art Directing. So difficult meh? Heheheheh....
My ways of expressing feeling might be slightly different, but I don't think throughout the entire conversation I was uninterested to help or I sounded pissey?
Haha... but NVM... it's clarified already and I still like him as my friend.
He's a teddy bear! =P
Sometimes a real scary teddy bear (when angry)!!! =P
S700i
Opss... pardon me. Did I tell you that I just bought myself a S700i HP?
Hehehe... be envy and jealous for all I care! =P
FARK!
Hello ZZzzZZzzzz people out there,
It's 1:35am and i'm still stuck in the office
CLEANING other people's SHIT!
This is
NOT FUN AT ALL.
But, I am glad that I have a very good AE to help me. Shane, I must say that I am very very proud of you and you have been doing a FARKING good job.
On a separate note, I almost wanted to kill my Client earlier during our WIP meeting this morning.
I almost went
OUT OF MY MIND and wanted to crawl over the conference table and stranggle the Ms. Client to death! Major bitch she is making us look
EXTREMELY bad in front of her boss. She did not update her bosses about the stuff we have been discussing and she acted
SUPER BLUR during the meeting, like she dunno anything about it!
YOU WAIT! I will dig out all the contact reports and i'll make you swallow all of them.
Oh... keep it cool, cause i'm an elegant person. =P
KARMA will haunt you!
Ngek ngek ngek ngek ngek...
USELESS Fella in the OFFICE
You know it's really irritating when most of the time all they do is question here and there, then give you that '2 cent worth oppinion' which in fact, doesn't even weight more than 1mg.
STOP TALKING AND START ACTING!
NO FARKING PASSSSSSSSSSSSSSION
Ming's last day is this FRIDAY. Gonna be sad and lonely. No more partner in SLUT!
MIng Ming... I will misssssss you.
BUT you know what, this time round when I go for any interview, and if I succeed, I will leave. NO HOLDBACK!
Heheheh...sorry...sidetrack abit =)
"When You Getting MARRIED, Huh?"
I tell you... I started to get very very worried when people ask me this question OR when this questions suddenly slaps me in my mind!
For now, my answer to it is - NO AM NOT GOING TO GET MARRIED BECAUSE I ENJOY BEING SINGLE AND I DON'T MIND HAVING ANY FLING!
I initially thought I somehow need to get married, be it a guy or a girl, at least at the age of 30 OR 35, but when this thought strikes me again last Sunday. I'm totally out of my mind! I re-thought, for a while, and the words just slip out my mouth.
I ACTUALLY ENJOY WHAT I AM ENJOYING NOW and that's my bottom line! No responsibility, no catch, no terms, no conditions. All you need to answer to is YOURSELF, your dignity and your pride.
Maybe all I want now is just someone to care about me, to give me the warm i desire, and make me his attention.
BUT that doesn't mean I didn't even thought of falling in love. In fact, I AM CRAVING FOR IT!
DUDES! FIND ME A MAN! =P
The birth of a new AMERICAN IDOL!
Better than Fantasia, the new AMERICAN IDOL is crowned to Nicky Lee! I ROCK!!!! =P
